Expectations are for this book to change my life...

I'm going to squeeze all the motherfucking juice out of this orange!

This book talks about an iconoclast being someone who does something that everyone else says can't be done. I've always seen myself that way, and those are the expectations that people have placed on me. I would say so far I have not lived up to those expectations - in fact it hasn't even been close. I think a lot of entrepreneurs probably feel like an iconoclast, beating their heads against a wall for years on end, and putting everything on the line when nobody else sees what you see. Certain things happen along the way that validate that you are on the right track, but more often than not there are stumbling blocks and challenges that will cause you to fail and possibly give up completely along the way. A very small percentage are able to make it to the other side... it's a stressful existence and can be especially stressful for those in their life.

I've been working on Game Plan Systems for over 8 years now. Not full-time, straight through. During a few years it was nothing more than a support phone call and renewing some hosting services. However, other times it included 90 hour work weeks and the most stressful situations imaginable. Now we are up and running and there is more promise than ever for something that was nothing more than a lark a few years ago. Promise isn't success though, and there is a way to go before we are a legitimate success.

The introduction of the book opens with an anecdote about Howard Armstrong. In short, the story describes an event that happens 14 years after Armstrong proved to his friend (the head of RCA) that his invention, FM radio, was superior to AM. The thing was that RCA was heavily invested in AM radio, so Armstrong not only lost his friendship but also ended up banging his head against the wall for 14 years trying unsuccessfully to make a business out of his invention. The event that happened 14 years later was Armstrong jumping out his apartment window, committing suicide after not being able to make a living out of one of the greatest and most essential inventions of the 20th century. His wife ended up selling the patent to RCA a year later for $1m, but lost a husband and probably sold for far too little.

I value my life way too much to consider what Armstrong did as a viable option, but as an entrepreneur I can certainly relate to the struggle. I often wonder why I'm 'blowing my brains out' over something that carries only a potential payoff down the road. Ultimately, I wouldn't want it any other way though. I like taking the risk, even if it never works out... it's about the journey, not the destination right?

Anyways, I take any kind of self-help book with extreme grains of salt. But I am hoping to take one or two useful bits of advice out of this book which will make me a more effective iconoclast.

I'll let you know if it's worth the read. Stay tuned!

5 for 7

Not horrible. I guess I should've called Mo'Nique on the merits of her Globe win... which I was not aware of.

I went out and didn't watch the actual event. I'm curious to how Baldwin and Martin did, but I will catch the highlights later.

My Oscar Picks

I hate award shows in general and I really don’t care about the Oscars. However, I love movies and this year had a pretty good crop. I saw a fair number that were in the Director and Best Picture categories, so I thought I’d throw down my predictions.

Best Picture

What I didn’t see: The Blind Side; An Education; Precious

What I want to win:
District 9. Was the surprise movie of the year for me and hasn’t received nearly enough attention, which is too bad. Hopefully it wins for Adapted Screenplay.

What I think will win: The Hurt Locker. Despite the controversy that surrounds it (the campaigning producer and knocks on its accuracy), it’s probably the second best film I’ve seen this year.

It wouldn’t be a surprise to me if Avatar or A Serious Man won, but either selection would make me kind of angry. A Serious Man is too much of an inside joke – those that get the references love the movie. I’ve met a ton of people in NY that think it’s great. I was bored with it though, and I nearly lost some friends who I convinced to come with me to see it (they hated it). Avatar, for all it’s innovation and entertainment value, is not Oscar-worthy. It’s the blockbuster to beat all blockbusters, but that’s about it. The plotline, character development and acting just are not there – it can take home all of the cinematography, art direction, sound, etc awards it likes and deserve all of them, but Best Picture this movie is not.

Best Director

What I didn’t see: Precious (Lee Daniels)

Who I want to win: Jason Reitman for Up in the Air. It was well written and supported by solid acting, but it was the direction that made kind of a boring idea for a story highly engaging.

Who I think will win: James Cameron. I think that he will take it for all the vision and innovation required to pull off Avatar. Will also be a good split of the major awards with his ex-wife, Bigelow.

Best Animated Feature

What I didn’t see: Princess & the Frog; The Secret of Kells

What I want to win: Fantastic Mr. Fox – this film probably gives Wes Anderson his best chance at taking home an Oscar. Still a bit of a long shot.

Who I think will win: Up. Always a safe bet with Pixar/Disney, plus it was the only animation nominated for a Best Picture.

Best Actor

What I didn’t see: Invictus (Morgan Freeman); Crazy Heart (Jeff Bridges); A Single Man (Colin Firth)

Who I want to win: Sam Rockwell in Moon, or Sharlto Copley from District 9 (looking forward to seeing him as Murdock in the upcoming A-Team movie). Too bad neither were nominated.

Who I think will win: Jeff Bridges seems like he needs an Oscar already.

George Clooney was typically solid in his Clooney way and Renner was really good. I didn’t think either were Oscar-worthy as I was watching them. I thought the dude from District 9 was much better. I think that there’s an off-chance that Freeman takes it. For some reason, it also seems like Clooney’s year. If ever there is a multiple choice question and ‘Clooney’ is an option – you will score higher every time if you pick that answer… his ties to Hollywood’s best directoral talent seems to keep him secure in potential winning roles. But I won’t mind seeing Bridges take home an Oscar… I don’t think the Tron sequel will get him that nomination, and he seems like a favorite this year.

Best Supporting Actor

What I didn’t see: Invictus (Matt Damon); The Messenger (Woody Harrelson); The Last Station (Christopher Plumber)

Who I want to win: Christoph Waltz (Inglorious Basterds). He was unbelievable as the chillingly two-faced Jew hunter & stole the show from Brad Pitt, who’s no slouch.

Who I think will: Waltz.

Tucchi was great in a shitty film, and I think that there are cases to be made for Plumber, Harrelson and Damon to be honored, but this will not be their year. The Academy especially loves to reward those performers who feature in a wide range of roles through the year and both Harrelson (Zombieland) & Damon (The Informant) played more colorful characters in their other films of ’09, returning from a relatively quiet ’08 for both actors. This might be the last nomination for Plumber, who’s getting up there – and the supporting role is one where the Academy likes to give props to veteran actors/actresses. And Tucchi, another veteran performer, was very creepy in his role as a serial killer and on top of everything, lost his wife this year.

On the face of it, things seem stacked against the relatively unknown Waltz. However, I still think he will win. And he will win on merit, which is all that much sweeter. If he takes it, it will likely be the most deserving Oscar of the night as I suspect that the other categories will be too filled with politics, or too close to call.

Best Actress

What I didn’t see: all of them, so… The Last Station (Helen Mirren); An Education (Carey Mulligan); Precious (Gabourey Sidibe); Julie & Julia (Meryl Streep); The Blind Side (Sandra Bullock)

Who I want to win: I don’t really care. I thought Natalie Portman was pretty good in Brothers, but I really don’t have much point of reference on this one now, do I?

Who I think will win: Bullock. Seems like she’s got it wrapped up.

Best Supporting Actress

What I didn’t see: Nine (Penelope Cruz); Crazy Heart (Maggie Gyllenhaal); Precious (Mo’Nique)

Who I want to win: Cruz. She is very good looking and I think that her acceptance speech would be endearing.

Who I think will win: Gyllenhaal. She’s highly regarded and weird (let's say 'quirky'). I don’t mind her taking it home. Mo’Nique seems to be getting a lot of buzz too, but I’ll stick with Ma’Ggie.
 

 

Side note

Forgot to mention that the highlight of the trip back from Spain was getting to watch yet another Gervais comedy on the plane - The Invention of Lying. Was great as expected. Jim Gaffigan and Louis CK had solid supporting roles. It wasn't as good as Ghost Town, but entertaining nonetheless.

Also - the flight reinforced my love for British Airways. A top-notch company.

Another side note, while I'm thinking of it... I really had a chance to bond with the guy I was staying with in Spain over my last couple of days there. He sent me a couple of messages on Facebook after I left. He's a really good guy and has a similar outlook on life to me. I hope I get to run in to him again as he'd be a great guy to travel with. Definitely wish him luck with everything he's doing.

Exhausted

I'm lying in bed at the place I'm staying at in Brooklyn - listening to the trade deadline and marveling at the Oilers' trades today. All I really want to do is sleep though.

I had a long call with a friend of mine at 8pm Mountain time on the 1st - which was 4am in Spain. I got a few hours of sleep but got up early enough to enjoy my last day in Malaga. Then flew out at 5pm in Spain and 12 hours later arrived in NY without sleeping on the plane. What a relief being back in NY - it definitely seems like home in a lot of ways. When I got in I was talked in to going out with my previous roomie, Patricia, who I stayed with last night. I finally went to an underground speakeasy, which was a lot of fun. But by the time I got home at 3am ET (9am Spain), I was really overtired and although I fell asleep instantly, I woke up only 2 hours later. The 2 hours I slept involved a very surreal dream and I wasn't able to get back to sleep. Thankfully I could get a little work done, as some inspiration hit.

So from the time I woke up on Mar 1st to now (which would be 11pm Spanish time on Mar 3rd), I've got a total of 5 hours sleep. I want to make the most of my time in NY (Animal Collective plays at the Guggenheim tonight & midnight showing of Alice in Wonderland), but I'm also getting sick & am pretty much useless right now. I've been trying to sleep for the last 4 hours and no luck.

I might need to head back to Soho. Maybe the unfamiliar setting is keeping me awake. The lack of sleep is probably making this blog post non-sensical, and if so I apologize.

One thing I will say is that the feeling this time around in NY is already a lot different. Like I mentioned, it does seem a bit like home now, and my schedule looks full for my 5 days here. For some reason, I'm also in the mindset to go out a lot more now. I also have offers to move in full-time with both the girl in Brooklyn that I'm staying with now (starting in May) and the girl who replaced me in Soho (in July). Gives me a lot to think about.

I'm also really looking forward to my meeting in Calgary, but really wasted the day away in my tired/sick haze. I hope I can pull my shit together tomorrow.

One disappointment so far: not being able to arrange a caesar-making contest with my hockey-loving friends I met at the Digital Dumbo event in January.

Busy Day

Holy shit, what a crazy day. It's funny how sometimes things just fall in to place. Yesterday I was faced with coming back to Calgary this week to take care of some things at home (thereby missing Brooklyn) OR staying in Brooklyn and missing out on the things in Calgary I needed to take care of.

Luckily this morning, one of the things finalized itself.

Almost immediately afterwards I got some follow-ups in both Calgary and NY and all of the timing was able to line up nicely. So now I'm going to do both. I leave tomorrow and will be in NY from the 2nd to the 8th. Calgary on the 9th for a meeting and to drop off all the luggage I've been dragging around with me, and then on to Austin on the 10th for SXSW. The festival doesn't kick off until the 12th, so I will have a couple of days to unwind luckily.

I have a crazy travel schedule in front of me and so much work to do, but I have a ton of focus right now and am really excited. I'll definitely be feeling like George Clooney's character in Up in the Air by the end of the trip.

Congratulations Canada

Not the same watching the game on the couch in Spain, but was a great game nonetheless. Better result.

During their last Gold medal win, in Salt Lake, I was working with Hockey Canada. Working with HC during the Olympics is a great experience, especially when they win. It's going to continue to be a great few months for them I'm sure, as they absorb the after-effects of the win. I'm jealous.